I found it hard to smile this week. I was preoccupied with today, February 5.
Yesterday, I was stressed about it. My eyes filled up with tears a few times while I was at work on Wednesday. I tried to distract myself, but my mind kept doing its own thing.
My husband is a part of a 23 member team that is going to Africa. They left today.
No, I am not worried. I know that God is in control.
This team will be doing some wonderful ministry during their trip. It will be God-inspired, God-led and God-filled. I am very excited for each member of this team. I know they will return home richly blessed and probably feel that they've received in their spirits more than they have given.
But....I hate being apart from my husband. I don't like that he'll be so very many miles away. And all the way across the ocean.
I'll be missing him desperately.
Thankfully I have two children that can drive and all of my kids are old enough to look after themselves. Well, at least I know that they are capable of looking after themselves.
As I'm writing this, I've received an email from him while he's waiting for takeoff. He sent me a picture of him sitting on the plane.
I'm frequently checking his flight status. I love that I can see where his plane is.
In the mean time, I'll be counting down to when I get him back.
Thursday, February 05, 2009
I'm Trying to Smile
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After 12 years of Mike and his "job" I think I should be used to being alone, without him--but I always miss him dearly, and count the days until his return. (although he doesn't go across the ocean, he still leaves for weeks of the year)---so I definitely understand how you are feeling. I pray that the 3 weeks go by fast for you, and you will enjoy some "rhonda time".
It IS a long time Rhonda and I know I would being feeling the stress if My Mark were gone this long...I am available for some distraction time and am thinking a ladies dinner night might be in order while all these hubbies are away.
The great thing about the separation is that about halfway through, you start changing from sadness at the separation to anticipation of your reunion!
Xandra
When Kevin is gone for me the hardest part or when I miss him the most is bed time. I actually sleep on his side of the bed to make it easier - I know I'm strange!
I fully understand where you are coming from. At least you know when he is coming home. With Paul's job I don't often know when he's leaving or when he's coming home. Call me if you need to!
Our whole family is praying for "the team" and look forward to the updates. Hugs for you Rhonda!! I know that you will really miss your "Prince"! :)
yes when you have been married a long time they do become such a big part of our lives. We don't seem to function as one because they are huge part of us. I pray that the time goes by super fast!!!!!! God's grace will get you through this.
Ah! This is sweet.
I was on the flip side of this in September. I'm the one who went to Africa. And, there were no land lines or internet in the remote place that I was at. I did however get to call my hubby on his birthday.
My hubby was, according to his words, "sick" without me. His co-workers said he was not the same Sid. He carried me, my safety, and the fulfillment of my life long dream, deep in his heart and spirit.
I know you are doing the same for Mark.
Isn't it nice to know that we have such great loving relationships that we actually do "long" for our friend and lover when they are gone?
Praying for protection for your husband and his group, and for peace of mind for you while he's away. {hugs}
Rhonda, I hope you get some sleep. Both my husband and I have a very hard time sleeping apart. I guess you just get used to having each other around.
Take some extra time to read a book, blog, watch a chick-flick (as my husband calls them), or some other self indulgent activity.
I will pray for you reunion.
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